Man, I didn't realize how long it had been since I had made an entry in my blog. I knew that it had been a long time, but didn't know that it had been a day over seven months since my last entry. But, when I think back over what has happened since the beginning of January, I know that I have just been overwhelmed by so much happening in Life. I guess it is just reaching that age and trying somehow to "process" and make sense of it all.
My closest aunt (on Mother's side of the family) passed away towards the beginning of the year. Auntie Em, you, too, are missed and loved so much. There have been a lot of family passings these past few months and it's just hard to make sense of all of it. Yes, it's the "circle of life," blah blah blah, but to find a place in one's heart to place all of the grief and to move on, has been so hard. I think that progress is being made and then something else happens to turn the world upside down again. I guess that I should find some pride in the fact that I haven't become an expert in dealing with the passings on both sides of my family.
Trying to find a sense of some peace in getting back into some weaving. It's a passion that I discovered that has somehow replaced my passion for theatre (although theatre will always be my first love), but for whatever reason, I always place obstacles in the way of actually doing the weaving. I wonder why that is? I enjoy/love it, but there are so many other things that HAVE to be done. It's hard to rationalize doing something that I actually would enjoy doing.....like right now I should be designing my project and winding my warp! The human psyche (or, at least, mine) is so funny that way.
It was never the intention of this blog to be full of so much sadness and self-examination. I don't know what I thought that this would be. Maybe something that was like a newsletter and only full of good news. Sheesh -- when will THAT ever happen? I guess it's just part of the balance of Life. The highs and the lows -- I'm just in the "lows" right now. I'm done with the lows though (Enough is really enough!) and am ready for some highs. I really thought I was on the up turn, but then recognized that it was just a temporary tease to be followed by a backslide. Eventually, the up turn will come and that is what one has to live for and look forward to, right? HOPE, that's what it's all about.
Mother and Dad's house is up for sale, thanks to a LOT of work done by Jean's husband Chip, friend Tom, and son-in-law Mike. There seems to have been a lot of showings, but I don't know what's normal. There actually was an offer on the house, but after inspection, the middle-aged, potential buyer who had never owned a house, must've gotten scared off by the idea of homeownership. It's not like you can pick up the phone and call the landlord when you're the homeowner. So, after inspection, rather than even a discussion with us, she just backed out. Fine.
Doing laundry all day. Funny how I forget to check the washer and/or dryer -- so it takes all day. Just emptied the washer. One of the signs that I believe always comes from Mother is the discovery of a penny. So...after a day of thinking of her all day long, what do I find? A single penny in the washer! A comforting thing to know that she is always there when I need her. (Sure, a simple coincidence, but I choose to believe that it's from her.)
Well, so much for the three-day weekend. It just went by wa-ay too quickly. Somehow I need to finish laundry, wind my warp, make lunch for tomorrow, and hopefully, watch a DVD. Somehow I don't think that the DVD will make it into the schedule.
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